Today is a sad day for me. A friend of my son's has just died of a heroin overdose. He is not the first in this town. This heroin epidemic is hitting everywhere, I am aware of that. But that doesn't make the situation any better. I am a person who strives daily to stay positive. I listen to The Secret. I tell myself positive affirmations daily. I even have a gratitude rock that reminds me of being grateful for so many things in my life. To stay positive, I do not watch the news, nor do I indulge in negative conversation. Paying attention to that only proves to bring me down. Most days I stay inside my little happy bubble just to keep a smile on my face. But when news like this slaps me in the face - right in my hometown...I cannot hide from the negativity. I know I can teach my children well like Crosby, Stills, Nash, and Young have taught me. But how can I be 100% sure they won't fall under heroin's spell anyway?
And aside from drugs, how do we protect ourselves and our loved ones from guns and predators and just plain evil people? These are the things I usually don't think about - the things that occur outside my little bubble. But like I said, all I need is a slap in the face from someone who reaches into my bubble and makes me face reality...suddenly the world seems bleak again and I need to work extra hard to build up that bubble and smile again.
Is it possible to bounce back after such sad news? Yes, I'm sure it is...but sometimes, it is just easier to let it suck you in and drown you. But since there are so many things to be grateful for - my husband, my children, my health, my house, the trees, the flowers, the good people...God - then I think it's worth it to take a deep breath and blow that bubble back up. Yes, I need to realize that it will pop and some days will be cloudier than others, but I refuse to let it take hold of me. I refuse to let negativity in for too long. I will mourn. But I will get up, brush myself off, and smile again...even if I have to force that smile at first.
Thank you for listening to me. If you would like to share your thoughts on the subject, please feel free to leave me a comment. I'd love to hear how you stay positive. Or how you just can't seem to see the silver lining behind the cloud. I still want to hear it. This is a rough life sometimes, we need to vent.